whope.

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sofapizza:

smells like holy spirit.

sofapizza:

smells like holy spirit.

sofapizza:

i’ve gravity’d and i can’t get up

sofapizza:

i’ve gravity’d and i can’t get up

Day 0/60

Hello friends!

    Thank you for stumbling on to my blog. The concept for this has been in the back of my mind for a few weeks now and I’ve finally decided I’m in a good enough spot to get this rolling. I am going to put myself through a very strict diet and training program. Most of you know that I have been able to lose a considerable amount of weight and pretty much keep it off. I want to give a little background to this so you can be completely aware of my journey and what is making start this challenge. 

In 2011 I made the decision to start a weight loss program with the help of my good friend Ryan Olson. I owe this guy a huge part of getting me started down a path that has been the most rewarding thing I have ever done. After playing basketball at the rec center one day me and Ryan began talking about how un-happy I was with being overweight. My current weight was approximately 290lbs. and this was Jan. 2011. Ryan helped me with the motivation and guidance to go to the gym and keep an awesome diet. With his help I managed to lose roughly 90lbs. by August/September time frame. Due to work/life schedules Ryan and I weren’t able to keep working out as we once did and somewhat drifted apart. I had to take my diet over on my own and workout program over on my own starting in September. 

This was a huge failure. I got overly focused on only eating lean protein, using supplements i knew nothing about and aimlessly wandering with workouts. I remember hitting a very hard wall because the only thing i would eat is lean protein and protein shakes. Carbs were evil. Fat was the devil and if it wasn’t 95% protein you wouldn’t find it in my diet. THIS WAS ABSOLUTE MADNESS! I was so misled by “dieting myths” and mis-direction that I nearly killed myself via tearing up my digestion and nutrition health. 

I had to do something. I was failing and getting frustrated. Since starting at SelectHealth there were two people who were the ultimate workout/nutritional guru’s. One being Ryan Olson (who literally changed my life) and the other being Clayton Mortensen. My first interactions with Clayton were well…We didn’t seem to get a long at all. It was almost as if we had nothing in common and that we were completely opposite people. Frankly, I wanted his help because he definitely knew about what he was doing…but because I felt we were so different I waited asking for his help. I don’t remember specifically what caused me to seek his help but it propelled me into a mind set that has lead me to this current post you are reading. It’s funny now that I put this out there because Clayton and I have since became really good friends, and ending up realizing that we have a lot more in common that we originally thought…but that’s another story for another time. 

Clayton cleared up a lot of dieting confusion and misconception I had about fitness. He showed me different approaches and basically gave me the “expertise” knowledge I was missing. Clayton drew up a specific plan for me to follow and helped with monitoring me while I participated in his plan. He did this for me absolutely free (which I feel as if I still owe him). He currently operates his fitness program and is, in my opinion “The only personal trainer”. Clayton introduced me to a new form of dieting that a lot of people cringe at when I try to explain it to them. This new diet program has helped me get the best results I have ever had with any kind of program. It’s called “Intermittent Fasting”. Starting this program in November, I went from 190lbs down to (my lowest ever) 165 lbs. and looking extremely lean in less than 4-5 months. More on this program later and how you can seek getting the same results from a program Clayton. 

Due to work changes/life changes, self reflection and weak moments I gave up on dieting and exercise completely about 1-2 months ago. I have quit all forms of “dieting”, I’ve been binge eating and just basically not caring. I eat/drink whatever I want when I want….and I’ve paid the price for it. I haven’t stepped on a scale in 3 weeks but I can tell you that I know I weigh more than my lowest of 165lbs. I would guess that I’m probably around 190-200lbs. currently. 

So that brings me to this blog…what I am doing and Why i have i forced you to read my life story? I am starting a 60 day journey, fresh start, to show you that with a little determination, the correct tools, and motivation you can get shredded. More on this later. 

I labeled this post day 0 for a reason. I haven’t started yet. Today I am doing a body cleanse (reset) if you will and starting on my Mortensen Fitness “IF” program tomorrow morning with intense training. I am going to also add my own thoughts or ideas in on this as we go. I am basically going to figure this out on my own but keep a daily log so I can share with you the emotional challenges, progress, and hopefully if you follow this…I can read your encouraging comments. Even if no one reads this I feel confident in my abilities and mental strength to make some serious progress.  Later today I will sit down and share with you my vision for the plan. Today was putting my stake in the ground and letting you guys know what I will be doing and that you can follow along. 

Ready, Set,     GO! 

Anxiety makes me feel Anxious.

There are times when my humor is hidden.

I feel overwhelmed, lost without a map. 

Somewhat indescribable, the darkest shadow following me. 

Moments of clarity are held on to, only to reflect what has went wrong. 

I wish google made a map, something I could follow. At least it would be on my phone. 

It’s a phone that rarely rings, but distracts me from what is here. 

So simple to get off track, and frustrating to recognize. 

Nutrition is a gamble, money I always lose. 

I’d live off of pizza and cereal if I could. Neither of which can be digested by a broken self-esteem. 

I’ll avoid a mirror for now, I wouldn’t want to crack it like my broken vanity. 

There’s always tomorrow as I claim a fresh start. ‘One of these days’ I tell myself, only to realize too late. Today was the day. 

sofapizza:

he was the class clown of their class.

sofapizza:

he was the class clown of their class.

sofapizza:

finalellipsis:

look at this QWOP cosplay gif I found

i propose a new olympic event.

sofapizza:

finalellipsis:

look at this QWOP cosplay gif I found

i propose a new olympic event.

sofapizza:

sick bastard

sofapizza:

sick bastard

i lol’d

i lol’d

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